sadness n sorrow

today's kamis rite...?...hmm....kire2 from sbtu ritu, da 6 days me n sha break...waahh...kecewa, sedey sume ade....even my trip wit my famili to Kelantan to visit our cousins pn cm tak brpe nk enjoy...my mom n dad didt know wat actually happened....they just saw dat i was suddenly changed to really2 moody n sad....yeahh...dorang msti pikir yg aku mesti sedey berpisah ngn kwn2 yg da knl almost for one year..tak pn handfon aku yg bru jahanam jmaat mlm nk balik tuhh...huuhhh....mle2 suasana dlm Avanza 1.3E tuhh ceria ngn suara aku...tp when we past Kulim, no single word came out from my mouth...even when my dad asked something about my friends, i just answer ya or tak jek...she's almost everything to me....i realy luv her and i cant imagine how i'm gonna be if she's not in my life...it happened realy sudden...sblm aku kuar dr mtrix she met my mom, kiss my mom's hand n hav a talk...but then, a sms changed everything...haaaahhhhh...ape2 jadi pn, aku kne sabar gak...kali ni biar la die ngn keputusan die...aku tak nk pujuk blk cm dlu...biar la die ngn kputusan die, aku redha bhw Dia berhak menentukan mana yg baik....

thnx Syaza coz try pujuk die blk....she needed time to think bout it ryte?...hurmm.....ntah laaa....yg pntg, i really luv her so much...aku tak mghrap pn die bls blk syg yg sme, cme kekalkn hbgn syg tuh smpi ble2...erkk..trjiwang la pulak.....

nk story....mlm td dlm range kol 12 ke kol 1...first sms die for the day...ye lah, die pn bkak maxis skang..aku pn wat pe nk halang die...die ngadu "sha dmm"...next sms "kol la sha"...aku tetap rply msg die "cowi l8 rply..sha da mkn ubt x?esk ckp kat mama eh..soh bwk g klnik...mlm ni tdo ngn slmut,tggi2 tau..mnum air sket.."

yup..caring is sharing...sharing is caring...aku windoo die sgt2....tp bia la la tak cntc die sgt...bg die mase utk pikir hal kami..hurmm..then she ask me to call her, pkai tepon umah...hmm....orait, aku call...gpn da lme tak dgr sore mnje die...soh mkn ubt, mnum air, buang ingus..tp cm biase, jwpn mnje die "tak nk"...jwpn tu la yg slaloo wat aku tersenyum...ade skali dlu mse mle2 kitorg kapel...kitorg uuper joeys g pesta penang....mlm tuh die pening2, nk muntah....aku sntiasa kat sisi die, bgun mlm cari air utk die minum n tggu smpai die tido....yep..aku mnjekn die sgt2...ok back to da story....lastly aku da ckp gud nite kat die, lme gak die diam....tetbe dgr die teresak2....ahh sudah....aku ade silap ckp nih....tbe2 je...."sha rindu".........................lme gak aku diam pastuh....aku tak ley nk tipu diri sndr gak...." el pn rindu gak..but ryte now sha tido, rehatkn diri...sha kn dmm..k?"....

so korg...klu korg kat tmpt aku, korg nk wat cmner?...huuu....niway...ell sntiasa tggu sha blk kat ell...i luv u shazana....